Introduction (Sort of)

Starting January 1, 2020, I'm doing this thing called the Whole30 which is designed to "reset your health, habits, and relationship with food, and discover food freedom." It's not going to easy, but it's not going to be hard. There are harder things in life than "giving up" certain foods/food groups for 30 days. I know this, but I can't help be afraid of it anyway. I've always had issues with food and weight management. I don't know how much I weight right now, and I don't want to know. I'm sure it would make me cry. I'm done crying over my weight and now I'm going to try something different. I now the number on the scale doesn't matter and that it's not a true measure of health. Even though I work out and my numbers (cholesterol, blood sugar, etc.) are good, I'm not healthy. Healthy people don't eat cookies for breakfast; healthy people eat protein and veggies for breakfast. Healthy people don't eat four doughnuts in a single setting; healthy people eat one donut and stop. Healthy people don't play games with their eating (if I don't have sugar all week, I can have a Ben & Jerry's Phish Food Friday night; healthy people eat Phish Food occasionally. (Oh, and BTW, healthy people definitely don't lie to themselves about their sugar consumption so they can still have the Phish Food on Friday. I want to be a healthy person and lost my food hangups.

My coach asked our Whole30 group if we wanted to sign up for side emails that would help us learn more about our past relationship with food. I signed up for those emails, feeling kind of skeptical about it. The first side email arrived, and I've been sitting with some uncomfortable thoughts since I read it.

Why? First of all, she said, "get a journal (and if you rolled your eyes at journal, then you really need it)." Well, I rolled my eyes so hard, I'm surprised I can still see straight. I'm not a touchy-feely "deep dive into your feelings" kind of person. But I decided to do it anyway. I'm not a pen and paper person either so I decided to blog my way through my Whole30 experience.